Oh no.

Aiyo..I can't believe United lost to Bayern Munich on penalties.





Oh well, at least they weren't defeated 4-1 like AC Milan was by Bayern.





XD

Cut off.

I feel so lost.

A new beginning.

So, I started uni yesterday (27/7) and let's just say it didn't quite get off to a flying start. I mean I made new friends but I was a little apprehensive on all the friend-making issue. For starters, I'm not exactly the most sociable person in the world lar. I don't simply just talk to anyone I don't know that well.

Just like my good buddy started her share of uni slightly more than a couple of weeks ago, I felt somewhat empty and alone. I never had that feeling before. Not at school or KDU but here I was feeling emotions that were somewhat not that common to me. Maybe it was because I hadn't really made any new friends in the past...eight months? Now, who can blame a girl who is at that circumstance?

I came home feeling really down eventhough I knew a few people from that day. It just didn't feel right. Weary, I just said a short prayer before I slumped into bed.

I dragged my heavy legs to another long day today. I had two days with 9-5 sessions, literally nine to five. God answered my short prayer. And I felt much, much better today.

Sometimes as human beings, we tend to feel lonely and anxious about uncertain or situations we cannot picture; particularly new surroundings. God is always there for us though and we should never be overwhelmed by loneliness and emptiness. That was what I picked up these last two days or so.

Going back to uni for a 2 and a half hour session tomorrow and none more for this week! So delighted and relieved at the same time. =)

When I am afraid, I will trust in You.
Psalm 56:3

If it is His will..

Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.

James 4:14 (NIV)

Overdue credit.

I am suddenly listening to every single MJ and Jackson 5 tune there is on the surface of this planet. I guess I never thought they had such fantastic hits. Check this out ladies. You think songs by Usher, Chris Brown and JT are hot? Here's the real deal: Dig in to Jackson 5, guess they're the real first 'boyband'.

When you hear Michael belt out I'll Be There and Smokey Robinson's Who's Lovin' You, it sorta gives you the goosebumps you rarely get out of today's pop artistes.

Jackson 5-I'll Be There



Jackson 5-Who's Lovin' You



By the way I did think that Malaysia gave a good show last Saturday against Man Utd but is our country going too far by calling Mohd Amri Yahyah a legend already? Come on, I agree with what one of the commentators said: It is all about consistency. Usually Malaysian football goes like this-one good game, next five games are bad.

Let's not get too much air into Mohd Amri's head aite? He deserves credit but not too much for getting a couple of goals against the Red Devils.

Manchester United in Malaysia

We don't know no Cristiano.
Sir Alex.
Michael Owen.
Ryan Giggs!!
Sir Bobby Charlton.
Man Utd making their last round.

Woohoo! Good luck in tonight's game.

Now I can finally say I've watched Manchester United live (plus Giggsy!). =)

Tomorrow's comin'.

Muahaha.

The excitement has finally kicked in. I was feeling somewhat mono this whole week before I suddenly realised yesterday that I was going to watch ManU play tomorrow!

Just checked the travelling squad members on the official site and huge disappointments as Park Ji Sung and Nemanja Vidic did not make the squad. The only new signing that's on the team is Michael Owen. But I don't care cuz I'm going to see Giggs!

I'm pretty bummed cuz we have only one training pass. Being the 'nice' sister that I am both my sis and I won't be going cuz it wouldn't be fair, aite? LOL

8 months later.

I never thought I'd see this day coming.

My long break is finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.

Eight months ago I was feeling so excited that I was going to start my degree course eight months in the future.

Little did I know eight months of doing nothing would make me so lazy. But it did give me time to sit down, reflect and change myself (not physically).

I realise that although I am still the impatient self, I have learnt to shut up when people irate me. Like seriously. I have this irritability factor which has somehow reduced..cuz I have been in a less stressful environment for a long period of time.

And I also had time to reflect on others. LOL Ok I'm not going to be mean but I really had a lot of time to see the true colours in many, many people. And it's not colourful. Some were dark and some were truely beautiful.

I got to watch so many movies at home, follow tons of dramas and talk on the phone with friends for hours. Wake up anytime I want (I did not exploit that though), watch all the football tourneys I can and got my drivers license. But with me being at home, my mom used her chance to make me clean the house and do the laundry and whatever you can think of. It got kind of fun after awhile. LOL

It is all now coming to an abrupt end but what the heck. I have enjoyed the life of a retiree for 8 months and it's back to studies.

One last break before the hell begins:

Man Utd in Malaysia! Looking forward to that! =)

Giggsy, I'm coming.

Those fingers are human nature.

I'm not a fan of John Mayer but I've got to admit that this was one heck of a job well done. That is why I love guitars. =)

Look ahead.

Adorable.

Since you been away
Don'tcha know
I sit around
With my head hangin' down
And I wonder
Who's lovin you?

Bloodshot eyes.

It was 12.35 am, 8 July.

I took a lie on my bed being very certain that I would be up by 12.55 am.

......................

Before I knew it my eyes opened to bright lights. It was already close to 1.30 am.

Frustrated I pulled my tired body out of bed and rushed downstairs.

And I thought I would've been punctual to catch the MJ memorial. So many channels were streaming it live from the Staples Centre, LA-8tv, StarWorld, E! and CNN. Channel [V] came with an hour late broadcast.

I never thought that I'd be able to pull through the 2 hour 50 min long memorial. And who thought that the tears would flow like a huge waterfall in the middle of a rainforest. The tears first came when Jennifer Hudson performed MJ's Will You Be There. After that it pretty much went downhill.

I guess the most moving moment was went Michael's daughter, Paris stepped up to end the memorial. His tearful daughter Paris's voice broke as she told the millions watching the Los Angeles memorial concert: 'I just want to say... ever since I was born.... daddy has been the best father you can imagine. And I just want to say I love him so much.' To the many legions of fans and admirers around the world, he was a hero and an icon. But to little Prince, Paris and Blanket he was just plain ol' daddy.


I know that endless MJ related blogposts have been here. I just don't know why 'cause I never was a fan when he was around. It is amazing that even in his death, he has earned brand new fans.

Will You Be There

Hold me
Like the River Jordan
And I will then say to thee
You are my friend

Carry me
Like you are my brother
Love me like a mother
Will you be there

Oh, love

Weary
Tell me, will you hold me
When wrong will you scold me
When lost will you find me

But they told me
A man should be faithful
And walk when not able
And fight 'til the end
But I'm only human

Everyone's taking control of me
Seems that the world's
Got a role for me
I'm so confused
Will you show to me
You'll be there for me
And care enough to bear me

(Hold me)
Show me
(Lay your head lowly)
Show me
(Softly then boldly)
Yeah
(Carry me there)
I'm only human

(Lead me)
Hold me
(Love me and feed me)
Yeah, yeah
(Kiss me and free me)
Yeah, yeah
(I will feel blessed)
I'm only human

(Carry)
Carry
(Carry me boldly)
Carry
(Lift me up slowly)
Yeah
(Carry me there)
I'm only human

(Save me)
Lead me
(Heal me and bathe me)
Lift me up, lift me up
(Softly you'll say to me)
(I will be there)
I will be there

(Lift me)
Hold me, yeah
(Lift me up slowly)
(Carry me boldly)
Yeah
(Show me you care)
I will be there

(Hold me)
(Lay your head lowly)
I get lonely sometimes
(Softly, then boldly)
I get lonely, yeah, yeah
(Carry me there)
Carry me there

(Need me)
(Love me and feed me)
Lift me up, hold me up
(Kiss me and free me)
Lift me up sometime, up sometime
(I will feel blessed)
Yeah

Spoken:
In our darkest hour
In my deepest despair
Will you still care
Will you be there
In my trials
And my tribulations

Through our doubts
And frustrations
In my violence
In my turbulence
Through my fear
And my confessions
In my anguish and my pain
Through my joy and my sorrow
In the promise
Of another tomorrow
I'll never let you part
For you're always in my heart

by Michael Jackson

So beautiful in terms of lyrics. Very, very meaningful.

United are desperate.

This shows how much United need an attacking player.

No doubt he was a good player (mark my words, WAS), all the injuries and stuff worries every single United fan. The best part of it all is that he will be moving to United for free IF AND ONLY IF he passes a stringent medical test.

I say use the 80 million pounds and bring in Samuel Eto'o. That would be a much better deal.

1 + 8 is not fancy.

I was not in the mood turning 18 this 2009.

For some reasons, it just did not have that right feeling. My close friends were not around (though they did provide wishes), MJ dead just 3 days before and certain circumstances.

Then I have people reminding me of how legal I am now and my 'awesome' sister consistently hounding about how I am no more going to juve if I were to commit a felony. Yeah sure thing sister =)

Then before I went to bed I realise all the beautiful things God has blessed me with throughout these 18 years:

A good family, great friends, food, shelter, medications, a healthy body and a sound mind.

I just do not stop and wonder all these good things.

After that my mind wondered to all the 18 and above dos.

LOL I think I should not go into there.

Whatever it is 18 is just another mark of how long I have been here on earth. If there is one lesson I take from MJ, it is the inner child that lives in each and everyone of us.

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
And I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words
And I'll come runnin'
And I, girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You Are Not Alone by Michael Jackson