Patience, trust and hope.

1Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Romans 5:1-5

I've always loved these few verses because of how it reminds me that it is good to 'suffer' once in awhile.

I've been feeling unwell for nearly a month now since I got sick with a flu bug a month ago. Ever since then, I've been recovering then I get sick again, recover and now I'm sick again. It is even worse now that Malaysia is getting the A (H1N1) flu virus. I will admit that eventhough I've had no contact with anyone who's just traveled from the affected areas, I worry over getting it.

That's when trust really plays a big part. I was reading Streams In The Desert one day and it said,

when we ask for patience, God will send an almost unbearable person for us to deal with. When we ask for faith, we will experience illness or diseases. So on and so forth.

God so-call produces these fruits in many ways we deem as fatal or painful. But we cannot question His ways because He knows best.

I know I'm not studying or doing anything at the moment but trust me, stress is still there. For example, getting sick during unwanted times. Another thing is that people (rather someone) are starting to get on my nerves and annoy me, in any way possible. I'm finding it hard to deal with this one person but I prayed for patience for so many years. Maybe this opportunity is staring at me in the face.

I hope God will help me deal with this individual. I'm on the brink of giving up because of individual A.

You are faithful,
You are faithful,
You are faithful,
Your joy is my strength.